my story for today

yes



my story for today might be a bit acidic but its just the way i want to put it and i'm not stopping to think of anyone's feelings while reading this post. if you're smart, navigate away now. but if you insist to read on.. go ahead. but 1st warning though. don't expect a solid apology from me. consider yourself being told off then never. (and no. i don't mean you readers who even bother to read this. its about a few people in this mess. i hope you don't judge me too...severely)





so here we go,











there's still time to turn back now..

























fine. suit yourself.





should have known this would come at this period of time. typical, if you ask me. it have to happen when i don't need the distraction but here it is. all the same. as all of us know, exams are next week and we all don't want to be aggravated or provoke by some trivial dramas.don't deny it. and helllooo? same here!



first thing first:
# this incident happen by chance (i think)
# God may be testing me at the wrong time for me, right time for God
# i can't blame God so i'm blaming someone else who is directly connected to this
# why the choice of people??
# back to second, its God's choice. it can't seem to be help
# argh!!
# let the y chromosome be Edward and the x chromosome be... Jessica!! (lets not involve Rose. Rose is impossible to be compared with. :) my reverie is catching up i know. moving along..)



edward and i initially had a peaceful day. but i can't see the future and of course i don't see 'it' coming. its add maths lesson and the class is beyond bedlam plus not enough seats for some people to sit in their usual place. (way back. fyi) so the man in charge sits Jess next to Edward. wrong choice. a little awkward but can't say for the side of jess.. elated? guilty? hard to say. edward...ain't comfortable and for me, !@$%^%$#@#$%^&$#@#

to put it in easier sentence just so you guys don't get me wrong, i absolutely HATE sharing.

but at least jess didn't try to chit chat with me throughout the lesson. i think she can feel the menace settling around her. good. if she decided otherwise, hmph!!!!


and just so you know, jess is my friend but its been a while. i guess both of us can't be bother to even ask 'how are things?'. its that bad i know, but i have lesser respect for people in private schools but not that i don't respect them at all.. if they are nice people, i'd be nice but for those snooty ones, like i would give a damn. come on, education is the same in this country. its just the matter of speed and how you want to perform. and to be honest, government schools are heaps more fun and lively than trying to keep up with the riches.


and to put it so, i did ignore jess and sadly.. edward too but it did me good though. i had fun solving questions and even more delirious when i get the correct answers.. ignore me.


clearing up:
jess used to like edward but we don't know about now. so, there goes why i said i can't say on the behalf of jess.

and i'm so not B---- ok? where are you getting at huh?? its just that this situation is so alike to the story and there's no other way for me to describe it.



and jess?


@#$%^&^%$#$%^&*&^%$#$%^&*^%$#$%^#!!!!!

its coming!!

mid year examinations are coming!!!!

how now??!! how?? HOW??!!! i haven't start reading my history, biology, moral, sivik, pjk and...and.... argh!!!
i don't know what to do now...

oh..

i know!!!


brilliant me!! xp *clap clap*

*open the window* mmmm mmm!!! feel the breeze...soothing for the last minutes of my life.

since i've come this far, i've got to say:

its nice to live for 16 years as 'kids' but unfortunately not enough to enjoy being an adult. suppose i decided to end my life now.. but whatever. thank you people who know me throughout my entire life up until now (though i think you wouldn't admit that you knew me after reading this :) you guys really spice it up or for some cases, add acid to it but i guess that reflects who you are. decent or horrible right? yup. definitely right.

enough said.



so long s***ers!! (and no. its not you f.y.i. its just a reflex when you're momentarily insane)







p.s if you think i really would take my life away so easily, you're dead wrong.



and for all the silly donkeys in my life, here's a reminder for you.

you haven't seen anything yet biatch but i've seen fugly donkeys like you fo shizzle


$#@#$%^*%$##!@#$#$%$#%*%$@!@@##$#@!@#$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Special A !!!

Special A !!!! mine mine mine memememememememe mine!!!


!@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#$%^^%$#$%^&*(*&*(*&^%$$%^&^%^&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D :p :)


i know i'm acting a bit eccentric but - !@#$%^&&^%$#@@#$%^!!

i've been waiting for this moment when i saw it in Popular. at bargain price too! RM29.90
which made it possible for me to buy it on my own and without my parents knowing. they do not need to know about the fact yet but i promise readers, i didn't past on any half information about it nor did i lied about it. my parents won't come to know about it from here because, obviously, they don't surf the net that much. and this is no site they'd come to... so shhh...

i appreciate that...

i know this post seems to be out of place but be a sport and celebrate with me ya?

cos' i really wanted this dvd for some time now..



anyway, xP

love it always




tata now

mamak

i knew this wouldn't turn out to be what i anticipated. but still, i'm stubborn enough to ignore that i will not have anything to do but idle there. its not that i'm saying derogating things about those present-its not their fault that i'm being belligerent-but i'm having self-pity, for myself. obviously.

its not too late to navigate off to a more blissful blog. this post might twist to something repulsive. (or maybe not)



get ready then.. (i assume people continue reading this ignored me.)








okay, there's not much to elaborate from the short 2 1/2 hours there but adequate to drive me insane and dull. but first, lao gong if you're reading this, this post is everything and everything EX-cluding you..so don't get me wrong. my bom target here is no other than my oblivious sister.

maybe its just that the group is a little younger than me and a few of them my age-just not intimate enough to join the banter. i don't want to interfere with the kiddos' banter nor do i want to mingle with my i know u , u know me friends.. don't get me wrong ( for the 2nd time) they're nice people but i'm much comfortable with my usual mates. who doesn't? so what does that leave
me? mostly i stare out to space..i know when i stare towards people but not exactly looking at them- maybe to the scenery behind them?- they'd fidget until i look away... i'm sorry if i did offended anyone but...i can't help it. take that as apology or forget it. you're not getting a better one from me.




BUT.



there are happenings that i can't help but to respond. laugh.

i remember this the most - che ryl held the small container of two golden fishes (about 1.5 cm in length each) close to gladys's face while she continued to talk to vanessa. ( did i spell it right?) oblivious, i say. this is when it happened : che ryl beckoned gladys and she turned a little too abruptly only to jump back when she saw the icky fishes. :D :p are the fishes so repulsive?? :p


i can't remember anything else other than that though..

peace, dear readers.

my dear sister, ARGH!! inexplicable!!



i know i'm being petulant but- arghh!!!!


tata now.. i don't need another thing to end up broken.

don't hold your breath for the next posting.

finally.. its mine :p

last saturday was the day i lose something..
but in life, you lose some and you win some.

here's how the day goes: (fyi: the day is continuos from the post below)

my painful experience that i'm utterly unaware to at the moment, left
the house,reach the school, yada yada with friends.(going jj for shopping spree! :) made a few friends from other branches, come home (still did't not notice the absence of the mischievous furball), lunch and-okies,here goes nothing- bath dog time!!

this is when it all happen at the same time. ??? Cody? did he got loose? MUM!! whe--blah blah blah *glass heart breaks* *sobs*

hehe :) i know this is inappropriate but this accelerated story is hilarious.

got ready for the outing. reach jj and waited for two princesses.. bought mummy (mei fen, my non biological mum) 3 pairs of earings and a simple silver bracelet for her up coming 16th buttday.. and the whole time, my annoying friends (don't mean that literally) ask this," what you want?" like i know what to tell them. come on! so here are the suggestions i gave:

1) a black nightgown from a lingerie shop(they really did almost walk into the shop)
2) a pair of polka dot (pink. if i may) bra
3) high heels (chia's idea;think she's lonely being the only tall-y(fake though)
4) Special A anime dvd (really wanted this)

but i didn't get any of those especially the 4th.. better yet(or not)
thanks to Sim- remember this name y'all she suggested Breaking Dawn.hehe :)
and so the most precious present i've ever receive from my friends.

just want to put this out : thank you thank you thank you tnahk yuo tnak yu th u ....!!

cruelty is the new royalty huh?

this is so frustrating if you ask me now. i lost another one of my furball family.. just last saturday. i didn't see it coming that's one. or i'd wish him goodbye properly, rather than rushing of to idle in school-the tedium in school was inexplicable...i know how bk-ians who were present felt..

how can i buy back time now that i've ruefully ignore Cody in the morning? its as though he knew it was time. he whined at me while watching me walk away without so much a smile back at him. i've truly wasted my only chance. if i've known from the start, i would rather stay at home-i'd take whatever markah penalty- to spend the vestiges of time left with him still around and maybe accompany him through the last few minutes before letting him off in a centre, Subang.

life's so unjust but i don't blame my parents for the haste decision they make. it's the right thing to do now that our property is only allowed two dogs and no more than that.

i love you, C. i hope someone else who loves you as much come along as soon as possible and give you a better life you totally deserve. i'm sorry.., but it could have been a better farewell if i knew what is in store for you..

:.poodles

in a while gator

to Miki my pretty doggie, i'm so sorry but i was left with no other choice. i have to do it. i feel like a murderer in a way but sooner or later this would happen too.. it is so impossible to avoid the inevitable.

i'm so sorry it's got to be you for the 1st to go... i really hope you understand the means of our action-namely me. i miss you too...

it is too cruel for me to leave you alone in the bleak world but the choice isn't mine.. i'm truly sorry Miki..but please don't haunt or hunt me down went you're bless to finally meet Heaven's gates.. i love you always..though you're pretty annoying for something so small in size..

"later crocodile, in a while gator"

:. poodles